Saturday, October 11, 2008

Trusting Chariots?

The unprecedented drop in the stock market this week has reminded me of a question I have struggled with in the past – do I genuinely believe something about myself that is not true?

This thought first struck me years ago when I was reflecting on an exchange between Jesus and Peter in John 13. At the last supper Jesus was explaining to His disciples that He would be going away and they could not yet follow Him. Peter responded to this by saying, “Lord, why can I not follow You right now? I will lay down my life for You." (v. 37)

I believe Peter was genuine in this expression of devotion to Christ and honestly believed that he would be willing to lay down his life. And while in the end Peter did indeed come to a place where he was willing to lay down his life for Jesus, Jesus knew Peter better than himself and answered, “Will you lay down your life for Me? Truly, truly, I say to you, a rooster will not crow until you deny Me three times.” (v.38)

Will I do what I think I will do? It is hard to know until the time comes.

Well the time has come for me to see if my belief that I do not put too much confidence in my financial investments is really true or not. This week I have been standing outside of myself watching me watching the market. On the one hand I say, “See, I don’t value our investments too much! I am sleeping fine at night and am not stressed out over it all.” On the other hand, I look at CrazyMom and see what it looks like to really not be emotionally involved in the markets. I see from her that I still have some room to grow.

Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.
Psalm 20:7

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hello,
Your blog caught my eye, because my husband and I have 5 children and are hoping to adopt two from Ethiopia. We do not know anyone in our area who has a similar family. Do you have any words of wisdom for those of us just getting started? Have you come across any difficulties regarding race and others' opinions? You have a beautiful family. Thanks for sharing your lives!
Dawn for the Davis family in Oklahoma

Diane G said...

Ah, my favorite verse. In fact it our wedding verse. And so appropriate as we look at what our hope and trust is actually in, in light of all that is around us.